It’s been a while since I’ve posted/ranted.
Life blows lately.
I blame at least 50% of the suckiness on the fact that it’s winter time, cold, gets dark at 5PM, etc bc I always suffer through October-March/April. I hate the cold. I hate the dark. I want to be able to do things outside after work and it’s impossible this time of year. 😔
The other 50% is family/roommate/landlord drama.
My dad has a new girlfriend who is just fucking crazy and my dad has been different for the past couple months. He’s lost in plain sight. I feel like he’s just out of reach and I just want my dad back. Not to mention the fact that he’s neglecting the dogs bc his new fling is “allergic,” so he’s fucking living with her while the dogs stay at his house and get 10 minutes of interaction a day.
My dog has lived with my dad on and off for 7 years due to me going to study abroad, college, and living in pet friendly housing. Basically, I have needed to get it together and now that he is neglecting the dogs, it’s a big reality check.
My landlord won’t allow my dog and my roommates don’t want him around. Basically I’m in a fucking bind. He has been staying here anyway and my landlord saw him the other day and is flipping and goddamned shit over it. Understandably, though ever since he refused to allow my small dog despite the fact that he allowed my roommate to have 2 cats and allowed a previous friend who lived here to have a large dog, I’ve thought it was bullshit since I moved in. I should have avoided this place all together, but I thought saving money and living with my friends would be a good thing.
Turns out, I’ve reached my limit. I’m just a hair away from losing my cool and turning very very very crazy. And that’s not me, so that’s not okay. I’ve been clashing with them a lot lately and it is not good for our friendship nor for my mental health.
I’m just so stressed and anxious over everything.
I’m looking for new housing and I’m most anxious that my roommates will not understand my need to move and it will fuck up our friendship. Because, you see, we currently split rent & bills 3 ways, however they originally moved here to live just the 2 of them, so it shouldn’t be a big fucking deal. Plus, one of my roommates has been through a very very similar situation with her cats which is another story all on it’s own, but she should really understand where I’m coming from and I already feel like she will blow me off immediately.
Anyway, blah. So that’s pretty much my rant.